Life has been a bit much lately. I am still shocked every time I go to the farm and see the pit where our house used to stand, but it’s going to be okay. We have a roof over our heads and God with us everywhere, so I’m ready to be done being shocked and move on.
Carpe Diem, “Sieze the day”- I think I seen this as a Robin Williams quote right after he died. Ironic, isn’t it, that a man who was a source of light and encouragement for others was so dark and hopeless on the inside?
I guess you could say his death hit home with me. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE making you happy, I love laughing, and I love loving you, but I battle intensely to feel it for myself. Some days are really, really dark, and I am so thankful to my Father in heaven for nursing my soul back to life on those days.
I know how easy it can be to feel like you’re living life just floating around, without really being present for the big things or the little things, without really experiencing any joy or sadness or emotion… just being numb.
I wish I could find everyone who is there right now. I want to hold you so tightly. I want to talk to you, pray over you, and challenge you to move again. I want to bring you to the cross, the most freeing place in the world.
Today was a good day for me. I was able to be a valuable part of my family, encourage someone, say I love you, talk to God, make a decision, and live a little.
Today wasn’t a great day, but it’s one step at a time.
I have confidence in you. I know that even if today was not good for you, you are still amazing. I know even if you don’t believe me, that’s the beautiful truth. How do I know these things? Because I have a great God. Oh, I can’t wait for you to love Him.
Stay with me, okay? You got this. Just remember that even when you are too weak to go on, our Lord never wavers.
Love, Anna ♡
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